9mm Ecstasy
To all of those sad and misguided individuals who continue to criticize my work as sexual
and phallocentric masturbation fantasy - this one's for you. If anything, my work
represents an exploration of feminine strength and beauty, and reflects my own admiration,
respect, and fear of women, as well as a sense of my own self loathing. This image, on the
other hand, is quite clearly sexual and phallocentric, although the same themes of female
strength, power, and domination are still present (albeit in a different context). Having
never drawn anything like this before, the biggest challenge was trying to suggest a sense of
sexual intimacy and ecstasy through the subtleties of body language. I think it works quite
well (at least from a male perspective). I also toyed with having the gun react in some
kind of ejaculatory
manner, but decided that was a little too "in your face," to use an extremely tasteless
and inappropriate phrase. That would also be capturing the moment of ecstasy instead
of focusing on the tension prior to that, which is a far more interesting place to be.
But regardless, it's still just a smutty picture.
(pencil - January 10, 2002)